Joy and Heartache
I'm going to go out on a limb here and buck the old school tradition of not talking about miscarriages.
I miscarried my 2nd child last week.
I was so excited to share the news of my pregnancy with friends near and far via my blog. I was going to wait another few weeks and then spill the beans—it's such beautiful news to get to share. But then something went wrong with the growth of the teeny baby within my womb. And then, before I even knew it, I wasn't pregnant anymore.
My heart fiercely aches right now and I must admit I don't understand God's plan for my life. Getting pregnant was a delightful surprise to Jeremy and me and I cannot comprehend the 'why' of miscarrying. So for now, I will be content to share a bit of myself with the rest of you. I might share more, I might not. I might need to move on and blog about something else briefly after posting this, then again, I might not. My general policy when suffering is to do what feels good (within limits of course). Friends and family have been unbelievable in their support of us, I try to eat chocolate at least once a day, and I cry and talk when I feel like it.
But I miss being pregnant. And I suspect I'll miss my 7 week, 6 day old little bean of a baby until I step into Glory one day.
Rebecca, thank you for sharing your sweet heart. You are beautiful and brave and so many other things. I count it among my very favorite blessings to share this life with you--joy and heartache indeed. How I ache for you, too. I love you so.
Posted by: Renae on October 30, 2006 07:06 PMOh Rebecca, I'm sorry. Thank you for sharing; now your friends across the country can pray for you, too (and shed a tear with you). Thank the Lord that he keeps the little ones in His hands.
Posted by: Jeannette on October 30, 2006 07:18 PMRebecca, I'm lifting up you, Jeremy, and Livia in prayer. I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing with us all so that we can join in prayer for you.
Posted by: Anne on October 31, 2006 07:08 AMThanks for posting about this RT. I respect your willingness to write about it.
Grace and Peace
Posted by: andy on October 31, 2006 07:47 AMI'm wiping my cheeks. We love you guys.
Posted by: Keith on October 31, 2006 08:53 AMMy heart aches and eagerly waits with you for glory and restoration.
Posted by: karen on October 31, 2006 09:07 AMOh Rebecca, I am so sorry for your loss. You'll be in my prayers. Take care. :-)
Posted by: Melissa Marsh on October 31, 2006 10:33 AMRebecca, thank you for sharing. We are so sad for you, and I can imagine how you're feeling frustrated with God's plan for you. To be honoest, I'm a little frustrated myself over this.
We are praying for you to have joy and peace.
Posted by: Amanda Michelle Wittmann on October 31, 2006 01:07 PMOh Friend, I, too, am sorry to hear this. Thanks for sharing it, for your openness with this. And I'm sorry, sorry about the loss of your precious little one.
Posted by: Megan on October 31, 2006 09:40 PMI’m mourning with you all. That just breaks my heart! May you find comfort in the arms of our loving Father.
Posted by: Kate G. on October 31, 2006 11:25 PMRT-- Your honesty in suffering is a breath of fresh air. Know that you and Jeremy are loved and in my prayers.
Posted by: Christina on November 1, 2006 08:12 AMi echo the thoughts and prayers of everyone. im so sorry for your child who has passed on. surly our great God is merciful and mighty to save. He is loving kindness and His plan is perfect. somewhere in the midst of this fallen world we try to remind ourselves this. every morning.
Posted by: jared on November 1, 2006 12:01 PMWhile I know the pain of losing a child, I still never know exactly what to say when I hear this kind of news. I know my heart aches for you and I am praying for you and your family.
Posted by: mrscrumley on November 1, 2006 05:28 PMI am SO sorry to hear this...thank you for sharing with open-ness and honesty. I will be praying for you!
Posted by: Monica on November 3, 2006 11:30 AM
