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July 27 was a beautiful day in Lincoln, Nebraska. I watched the sun rise next to my laboring friend Lauren and remember remarking that today would be her son or daughter’s birthday. Remember these images from Lauren’s maternity shoot? And this one a few days after Judah was born. Well, here is the rest of the story—with permission from Lauren and Josh—as seen from the lens of my camera.

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We arrived at the hospital in the wee hours of the morning. Lauren worked through contractions in the dark quiet room for awhile, and then she walked the hallways. First with Josh, and later with me.

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I’ll never forget our brief explorations of the hospital before it really woke up for the day. Lauren sashayed through the empty halls, powering through contractions as she walked in order to move the baby downward. We stepped outside and watched the sun begin to rise. When we arrived back in the room, Josh was sound asleep on what some nurses call the “empathy couch” due to it’s lack of comfort. There’s something about a husband resting that, in these two labors I’ve attended at least, puts a laboring wife’s mind to ease. I like Lauren’s happy smile in one of the following shots—she could still smile at this stage.

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The sun’s brightness reflects on Lauren’s face. She is not sleeping here, don’t be fooled. Things are starting to get intense.

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Out of the tub. The clock keeps ticking and we’re getting closer to meeting Judah.

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And then he arrived. And all the hard work, all the growing of these past nine months, revealed itself in the form of a gorgeous gift of a baby boy. It was unbelievable. Even now I struggle to find the words to describe what it was like to see him for the first time. Thank goodness for photos.

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The Cranford Family. At Last.

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Nine weeks of foster parenting classes together. One life-changing call for the placement of two little boys. Approximately a year and a half of watching them work through the foster care system like champs. Two family photo shoots. One profound and perfect adoption court date. One pregnant belly. Five people in the Cranford family by the end of the day on September 17, 2013 (and yes, I am counting wee Cranford in utero who we’ll meet face-to-face this winter).

Praising God with my friends today.

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A Rainy September Day

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I needed a break. She needed a break.

First pumpkin spice latte of the season was almost a spiritual experience, though I’m embarrassed to admit it meant that much to me.

Homework sits, undone, on the kitchen table while she plays in the rain for HOURS.

I’m thankful for the rain, for the clouds, for the stream overflowing behind our house, for the little neighbors so happily playing together, for the hummingbird moths fascinating my daughter, for pumpkin spice lattes, for friends that call and text, for a husband who sent me to Starbucks even though we’re trying to save money, for a clean countertop, and last-but-not-least chocolate chip cookie dough.

I have not forgotten the date—no, I woke up with it on my mind. 9/11. Somehow it seems fitting that it’s a rainy day.

The Gerber Families

I’ve known Jacob and Allison for some time now, so it was a privilege to capture some family photos with their extended family a few weeks ago. Between enjoying their little ones at play—and convincing them at times to join the rest of the family in peeking at my camera—and wandering about in the Haymarket and Cooper Park, I really had a lovely time with the entire group. And watching grown men interact as brothers always turns back the clock, doesn’t it?

Thanks, Gerbers! I hope you enjoy these images as much as I do. You are a fine-lookin’ bunch!

**Brief sidenote: Jacob and Allison are fabulous foster parents to a baby boy right now. Perhaps one of my favorite family portraits includes him, but you, my dear friends, will not view it here. At least not now. I may not be able to acknowledge this precious child in photos, but I can acknowledge him in words. So now you know. (Remember, loved and cherished but not forgotten.)

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Baby Boy is One!

This adorable little boy turned one last month and we celebrated by capturing his cuteness with a photo shoot. I may not be able to show his face—at least as ordained by the State of Nebraska—but I’ll tell you what I do know below…

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Though this child may be anonymous for now on one very small blog in the great world wide web, he is not anonymous really.
This child is important.
This child matters.
This child is made in the image of God.
This child is deeply deeply loved.

This is What Summer Looks Like, Part 4

Commence the debate as to whether it’s still summer or not. Summer, the season, came to visit us again yesterday (and I hear it’ll show up in full force today as well), so even though we’re in full swing at school, summer still reigns.

A quick note about photography and motherhood. Sometimes photographers who happen to be mothers get tired of documenting every event. We do this for work and are keenly aware that sometimes you need to put the camera down and simply *live* life, without documentation. And yet, I describe my cameras as being almost like a body part of mine—I want them with me pretty much all the time and feel something less than whole when I don’t have one at my disposal. But yesterday, while the kids were playing outside, I was somewhere between laziness and living in the moment, and had this ridiculous internal dialogue going. This light is wonderful… Look at these little faces… That’s okay, just enjoy it and enjoy chatting with Renae… But the light! Aaaa, the light! And that’s when I got up and shot a few images.

I’d say my efforts were entirely worth it in the end. I love these precious kids and I’m glad to make art from some of their last carefree summertime moments in 2012.

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Run for Priya: Getting Started

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On August 10 a walk/run fundraiser was held for Priya Steiner. It was a beautiful morning at Holmes Lake and I praised God for his healing hand in Priya’s life. It was a joy to participate and to see her friends, family and devoted public gather to support her that morning.

Read more about Priya’s story on her Caring Bridge site, and consider making a tax-exempt donation for her family at West Gate Bank in Lincoln, Nebraska (“Pennies for Priya,” Attn: Scott Faber).

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A Worthwhile Investment

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My next personal essay will be entitled, “The Role of the Trampoline in Respite Care” or “How the Trampoline Saved My Bacon.” Stay tuned.

Midweek Gratitude

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I am thankful for the cool air this morning. It’s filled with moisture and weighs lightly on my skin until a Nebraska breeze glides past and stirs it once more.

I am thankful for strong legs and feet that carry us to school in the morning, and for the way they walk, jump and run at our command.

I am thankful for aggressive Yorkies on the bike path and how they make me laugh as they remind me of my old dog Chloe and her crazy neurotic ways.

I am thankful that God goes with me, throughout my day and Livia’s. I am thankful he hears when I talk to him and I am thankful Livia is getting to know more of him as she grows. (This note of gratitude is written to him.)

I am thankful for Livia’s teacher and how insanely awesome she is. I am thankful our school administration believed Livia would learn well under her teaching, and how each detail I continue to learn about this educator builds my confidence in the leadership of our school. Thankful, thankful, thankful.

I am thankful for my husband in so many ways. I’m thankful for the ways he comforts and protects me as well as the ways he pushes me out of my comfort zone and encourages me—in his straightforward Jeremy way—to prove I can do new things. Yes, I did not want to license and register our new vehicle the other day and I certainly did not want to wait in line at the DMV, but I did it. And I can do it again.

I am thankful, once a challenging experience has passed, to learn of humility, grace, forgiveness and mercy. This life is not an easy one and it’s filled with people who have good moments and bad. May I continue to take deep breaths, believe the best about the folks around me (including myself and my family members) and dole out grace in enormous portions.

I am thankful today is Wednesday. And school has started. And that I have more time to work at last.

With that I’ll sign off. Happy Wednesday to you all!

PS: What are you thankful for?

Third Grade!

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Father God,
Watch over your beloved Livia today on her first day back to school. Be her strength and her stronghold, her solid rock while the rest of her world is changing and still unsettled. May she know that your spirit is with her all day long and that you comfort her. Please bless her with a quieted mind that is eager to learn, a heart of compassion for befriending others, and a spirit of joy that is contagious. Give her at least one friend today, Father; one person who understands imagination and creativity and exuberance. I am so grateful that you love her far more than I can even fathom. May your grace mark our household and your love bolster us to love others today.
In Jesus’s Name, amen.